life
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I wasn’t happy in that relationship, and the hardest part is that no one knew. Everyone jokes that I’m a terrible actor, but somehow I gave the performance of my life. I fooled everyone, my family, my closest friends, maybe even myself for a while. Behind closed doors, it was different. He was manipulative, selfish,…
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There was a time when I thought people only changed your life if they stayed in it. Sometimes someone comes into your life, gets so close to you that they become part of who you are, changes how you think and how you see yourself, and then life somehow still takes you in different directions.…
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Growing up, I think I believed people loved each other simply for who they were. The older I get, the less sure I am what that even means. We all seem to need something from each other. Support. Company. Attention. Knowledge. Connection. Sometimes access, status, or the feeling of being close to someone other people…
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I’ve been trying to understand how someone can feel so much like me and so different from me at the same time. We’ve lived different lives and had different experiences that shaped the way we see the world. Our perspectives, ideas, interests, and opinions don’t always match. Sometimes your mind goes somewhere mine never would,…
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I’ve been thinking about what I would actually want if I ever chose to be in another relationship. Of course, there are the important things. I want honesty, maturity, communication, trust, and someone who shares my morals and values. I want to feel safe with someone. I want to know that when something is wrong,…
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I really thought it was you. I don’t know how else to explain it. Out of everyone I could have met in this life, I really believed you were the person I was supposed to find. You weren’t just someone I loved. You felt like my person, my other half, my best friend, my home.…
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Something I keep thinking about lately is how unfair it is that someone can come into your life, completely mess it up, and then just walk away. Someone can make choices that affect your entire life, leave you dealing with the consequences, and somehow there’s no bill waiting for them at the end of it.…
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For a while, I thought maybe I still missed you. I would think about the past, get sad, and wonder if that meant I wasn’t really over everything. But the more time that passes, the more I realize I don’t actually miss you. I miss who I was before you. I miss the version of…
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I didn’t know I was being manipulated when I was with him. I knew I wasn’t happy and I knew our relationship was exhausting, but I honestly thought we just had a lot of problems that we needed to work through. There was always something going on between us. Some argument, some lie, some new…
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My aunt used to wish bad things on people. I know how that sounds, but that’s just how she was. If she didn’t like someone, or if she was jealous of them, she could say some really awful things. She’d talk about them getting sick or something bad happening to them, or she’d just say,…
been hashed 